A Blah Day

Today has been a tough emotional day for me. I have been dealing with insurance and its been a nightmare. They have new paperwork they want me to provide everyday. I have been working on this since November 9th and have been denied twice. I'm hoping tomorrow will bring a better answer.

When I got to the hospital today, I was asked to sign consent for Briella's 2 month vaccines. These vaccines are supposed to be given at 2 months of a full term baby. It scares me because she is still so small. She shouldn't be getting these shots until the end of March. She needs 3 different shots, but due to a vaccination shortage, 1 of the shots, a combo shot, they are out of and she will have 5 shots instead. I have requested that they wait until the hospital has another dose of the combo shot. The nurse asked the dr if that was ok and he said they would wait 1 week. I was just really stressed from having to make this decision for her and plus freaking out about finances and insurance. I had a mini meltdown in the parent room at the hospital. Luckily there were a couple of moms there to offer advice. 1 mother that was there had 4 children. 1 was a preemie currently in the NICU, 1 was wheelchair bound, blind and deaf. 1 has severe asthmatic breathing problems & she had lost a 6 year old daughter to cancer. It made me realize that Briella is ok right now so I need to be thankful. Another mom was there with her 3rd preemie baby. The youngest a 26 weeker with relatively no problems. He didn't walk until 2 but he is fine now. It gave me hope.

While holding Briella and after her feeding, she started getting really agitated. She was screaming. I had never heard her act like that. She was on her tummy on my chest, which is her favorite position and aides in digestion. She started making burping noises and then spit up quite a bit and some out of her nose. She then was even more fussy. I moved her to my lap and both Daddy and I were able to see her face and calm her. A little while later I had to put her back into her isolette so I could pump then leave to pick up Aubrey from school. Before I left the nurse changed her diaper and it was so full!!! So we came to the conclusion that she had no room in her tiny belly for her 34 mls and the poo. I was so so relieved that there wasn't something else wrong. I was starting to think she was getting sick.

A bunch of worrying today that got me nowhere except exhausted. I am excited for tomorrow and hopefully a fresh attitude.

Briella is doing well. She is 3 pounds 13 ounces. In my calendar for tomorrow it says that Dec 7 is my guess for Briella being 3 pounds. She has completely exceeded my expectations, not just weight but everything the last 9 weeks! I am a proud mamma.

Please pray that Briella stays healthy.